So, my 39th birthday is today (8th April, 2019). I thought I would do a really interesting blog post for it. I couldn't really think of any idea, so I decided to do a list instead. A list of things I love/like, want to do in the coming year or would like to do in my life at some stage.
The Round the World Trip with my Mum - my Mum and I have decided that as I am 40 next year and she'll be 70, we'll take a trip overseas. She wants to go on the Spinning Teacups at Disney Land, and I want to go do the Harry Potter thing at Universal Studios. But, it's expanded to include a trip to the UK to see her family, Chicago to see my sister, New York, Las Vegas and more. I hope we can do it, as we deserve a trip with all we've been through in the past few years.
Lose some (a lot!) of weight - I recently weighed myself, and I need to lose a lot of weight. Finding the time to exercise is hard, as I feel tired after work. Mum has been meeting up with me after work three days a week so we can go for a half hour walk, but I really need to stop eating junk food and soft drinks. I've also been taking my lunch to work, to stop me from buying bad stuff.
More self confidence - This is a difficult one for me. I was bullied a lot at high school for being "different". Now that I'm older I realise that being different, being my own person and not following the crowd is something to be proud of and celebrated. It's really hard to change thinking patterns that you've lived with for over twenty years. But, I'll be honest. I never thought I would write that much with this blog and now I've made it a regular thing. So anything could happen.
Making videos and streaming - These are two things I have done before. But I think I was too ambitious, and not able to keep up. Making videos is hard - YouTubers make it look easy, but it's really not, and it's even harder when you have a day job to keep the money coming in. I would love to have a more creative job than I currently have, but you have to work hard to get to a point where you can make a living from it.
Get back into music - I loved music when I was in primary school - I still do. I was in the choir at school, and later on, the dance group. However, when I got to high school, all the doubts of not being good enough set in. Even in my twenties I did a course where I wrote songs and it was put on an album. We performed our songs live, and I won a scholarship. I bought a Mac and some other computer stuff. I took a TAFE course in music as well. After all this, I still didn't feel like I was good enough, even though I still loved music. I don't know what I want to do, but I feel like I can't give up something I love so much.
Socialise more - When I went to my first PAX Australia, I felt like I could not only be myself, but also that I socialised a lot more than I usually do. Being accepted just as I am is a wonderful feeling, and one I would like to feel more often. It's hard because, in the past, people would make fun of me having "friends", like it was some kind of joke for me to be liked. It still affects me. But the past shouldn't control my future, and I've forgiven the people who were like that, as they didn't know any better.
Get a cat - I would really love to own a cat. I can't be a streamer/gamer without one, apparently. I've always wanted a pet, unfortunately we can't have pets in the place where we live currently. Hopefully, we'll be able to when we move out. While Mum would most likely want a dog, I'd prefer a cat.
Getting a mortgage/buying a home - This is scary, adulting stuff. I have saved a lot of money since I started my job over ten years ago. It's possibly enough for a small apartment - big enough for me and Mum to be happy. I guess I'm scared that something will happen and I won't be able to pay it off. Or that I will miss out on stuff because my money would be going straight into paying off the mortgage. I am lucky that I still live with my Mum, and she is more than happy to help me out. We really do need each other and I am so glad I have such a great Mum.